Official rule of thumb never be surprised when God shows up in ways you thought were too small. Today was a wonderful day to spend with friends and God. Although it didn't go the way I expected He came through.
Some may know that on February 19th, my mom and step dad will officially be divorced. When I found out a few months ago, my heart was a mess. I was angry. So very angry that my parents failed their marriage. I was bitter and hurtful towards them. I was the only one of the kids that knew and it hurt even more that I was holding a nasty secret and hiding emotions they didn't know they too were going to be feeling.
However, my heart has began to soften and I am understanding that it's not me that my mom and step dad look to, but God. Despite their feelings and decisions, the Lord loves them. This is humbling and also very comforting.
Today my sisters found out. Faith is well. She is strong and finds hope in God which I'm so thankful for. Lacie is about the same. Her heart is hurt, but because she is young she doesn't see the hardship that will come. I sometimes wonder if that is a blessing in disguise!?! Kirstin, however is hurt. She is 13 and at that age everything is painful. She is a very sensitive woman and she also holds a lot in. I'm praying that she continues her walk with God and express those frustrations with HIM. If you think of it, pray for my family's hearts especially Kirstin.
I have a good feeling that if this divorce does not miraculously disappear, which I have faith it still could, that our family will grow closer in love, at least us kids. My siblings and I have grown so much closer in the past year through this and I am encouraged by that.
The verses I shared with my sisters was James 1:2-4 My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
and the Lords Prayer, Psalm 23:4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
If anyone has any other verses that could comfort us all I will greatly accept them.
I'll be praying for you and your sisters during this time. A promise that comes to mind is Romans 8:28 that says, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good for those who are called according to his purpose."
ReplyDeleteGod is so great because he takes things that are ugly, like divorce and he can make it good for those who love him. What does good look like? Well I'm pretty sure it doesn't have anything to do with earthly comforts, but it has to do with a person experiencing a closer fellowship with God and how their life will be used for the glory of his kingdom. As your family goes through this, that can be a extremely comforting promise to hold on to.
Thanks for sharing your heart.